Thursday, April 23, 2009

Handing it Over



When I write a poem, I write it for me. If someone has inspired a poem, they will probably never see it or hear it. This is one of the first poems I scrawled on a fresh piece of paper and handed to the person who inspired it. I was growing up. I was ready to share myself emotionally.

There's never a moment
without you on my mind
Your eyes lips hands heart
are all too kind

How I long to have you
Safely swept into my arms
To kiss hug hold love
Oh how your body warms

When we talk
your attention on me
That laugh smile
How can it be

Only your presence
has the ability
to drop my guard
setting me free

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I Bite Into the Apple


Once upon a time I was dating someone who was more religious than I was. He was hesitant to begin a sexual relationship. I felt like the biblical Eve in the Garden of Eden - coaxing, tempting, seducing - yearning for him to take a bite out of the apple.

It wasn't just the "apple" that I was thinking about when I wrote this poem. It was the act of reaching up and out, bringing it closer to me, and experiencing it with all my senses. The freedom to grasp life and enjoy it!


I bite into the apple
Pierce its shiny skin
I moan in delicious ecstasy
as its juice slips down my chin

I close my eyes and savor
the pieces on my tongue
My eyes slowly open
once the chewing is done

I gaze into the flesh
where I have left my mark
I lick the sappy sweetness left
from being torn apart

I open my lips
and close my eyes again
Anticipating the pleasure
the next bite will begin.




Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Home


To be home

in your warm

strong hands

my heart

lays

Safe

Entrusted

Loved.

To be home

smelling the spices

in your cooking

as you

Nourish

me.

To be home

Deeply

Sleeping

Rested when I awake.

I carry home

with me

inside my blood

Flowing through my body.

I carry home

with me

inside my thoughts

Penetrating my mind.

I carry home

with me

inside my soul

no matter

Where

I may

go.

Home is my mother. Her smile, her voice, her imperfect perfection. I spent several years looking for a place that felt like home. Nothing felt right. I hadn't realized that my mom was the key to the door that opened into a home of unconditional love and unwavering support. Discovering that home can be a person, instead of a thing, is beautiful and terrifying. The moment I recognized that feeling again for someone else, I knew I would spend the rest of my life with him.